Yes. You are. Dig it.
I went to Reiki tonight. I've been going for a few weeks. From what I read it was supposed to be energy healing. Healing with energy.Healing the mind, the soul, the spirit. Good idea, I thought. Very spiritual with nothing to do with religion. Ok. I'm in. Held in a church. ummm..ok.
My childhood church.Where all my energy was spent as a child. Fitting that I could go there to be healed by energy. Like a blood bank. Well, my mind was working. Anyway...
Last few times I went , there were very strange experiences. In my mind? Maybe. But there were things i saw. A golden Hindu temple right in front of me then whhoooosh pulled far back, a badger or weasel, can't remember which , who walked over to me with his head bowed until he was right beneath me- at my feet- then he jerked his head up to face me and smiled the Cheshire cat smile at me. Very odd.
Also, Mexican Day of the Dead skeletons dancing, lights flickering like Aurora Borealis, pinpoint lights in the corner of my eyes, Stonehenge to the right of me, and a voice chanting "are you searching the stone?" or something to that effect.
When I came out and told the healer of these things, she told me that it was normal.That many people see many different things. I told her that every week from the moment I come in I want to cry and run out of there. She said that was normal too. That I was trying to 'break through'. Ok.
Last time, the church door opened and I saw a guy come into the church. I was sure he was there although I know he was not. Not physically.He was tall, in a robe hands tucked into his sleeves. He never looked up. Walked past me and to the rear of the church. I never turned to see if he sat or exited.
That information freaked out the healer and the others. Uh- me too.
THIS week, Reiki master works on me. I am in that church where I have spent countless hours as a child, caretaker, acolyte, reciever of communion,member of the choir,laughing child in the back pew, sunday school student, congregant, ( is that a word, even?), playing Mary in one of the Christmas Pageants, playing angel Gabriel in yet another, stealing the host and the wine from the sacresty, opening the tabernacle on the altar. I saw all these me's in there tonight. Like a creepy movie.
And tonight I did cry but I didn't run out of there. I didn't see too many unusual things, but saw a King with a gold crown who looked suspiciously like all the pictures of Jesus that I was bombarded with over the years.
Surely my mind at work from all the childhood brainwashings and being in this place.
SO- when we come out , the Reiki master wants to speak to me alone.
We go to a corner of the large church hall- she asks me: "Do you know about yourself? Do you know how special you are?" And part of me is saying "Yes , I do" and the larger part of me is saying "are you fucking insane?" And my mouth is saying "sometimes I feel like I am special in some way, yes"
So my cynical mind is thinking what is in this for her. But logically, nothing. The healers do this for free and the church gets themoney that we pay for the session.
She says there is a feeling of you not knowing who you are , not knowing that you are this powerful being. She said when we were in there, I felt so much in you. I really don't think I have ever worked on anyone like you before. When we were in there I saw a scholarly man at your knee, it was you and I started to cry and the only word that I can think of to describe it was divinity, that you were a divine being and I wasn't sure I should even TOUCH you."
Holy SHIT I thought. WTF is THAT about? She said that she felt I had a strong religious connection and I thought that's nuts, I am so completely NOT religious. She went on to say that she saw me with light all around me and crosses and Jesus and power. She stressed the power part. I was blown away.
I said " so what do I do with that?" she said "I don't know. I just feel honored that I got to work on you" Ok well, I said - stammering . Like what the fuck do you say to that? Do divinities say fuck as often as I do? Yeah I guess so! Ha!
So I said I would stand up straighter now, knowing I am divine and all. Wow huh?
You know someone this cool and powerful. How lucky are YOU!!
Current Mood: Hell, Im elated. A divinity!